To learn more about Cycle 5’s Kim Stolz, visit her bio page here. Photo credit: Theo Wargo.

In December of 2005, Advocate.com conducted an interview with Cycle 5‘s Kim Stolz following her appearance and elimination from the show. Here is the text from the interview (written and posted by Alonso Duralde):

Our next top lesbian model

Just booted from America’s Next Top Model on UPN, sexy tomboy Kim Stolz talks about Bre’s freak-out, Miss J.’s hypocrisy, and whether Cover Girl is ready for a Sapphic spokesmodel

Kim Stolz’s sexy androgyny might not be the kind of look that fans of UPN’sAmerica’s Next Top Model would expect to go far on the fiercely competitive reality show, but the brainy beauty managed to make it all the way to the top five. While her elimination might seem questionable to some—why she got cut before the irritating Jayla is a riddle for the ages—Stolz established herself early as one of the show’s most engaging personalities, especially after memorably crowing, “One down, 11 to go” (after kissing fellow competitor Sarah) and winning one of the show’s best prizes—a guest shot on Veronica Mars.

In an exclusive interview with Advocate.com, Stolz talks about what really went down with Sarah, and dishes a little dirt about bratty Bre and the infamous “granola bar incident.”

I always like to ask reality folks—do you think the show’s editing was fair to you and to what you experienced?
I think that for the most part the editing was fair. The only part that was a little bit exaggerated were the parts that involved Sarah and me. That was exaggerated to a pretty ridiculous point. With Sarah, there were conversations that we had that were left out that made the whole experience with her obviously much less serious than it was portrayed.

Are you still with the same girlfriend you had when you started the show?
Yes.

And did you have to explain to her what wasn’t being shown?
Yeah, we had a few of those conversations. [Laughs] In the episode, it was clear that I was interested in my girlfriend, and my girlfriend only. There might have been some instances where someone questioned it—not my interest in my girlfriend, but questioned what was going on with Sarah—but in the end I think it was very clear that there was nothing meaningful going on between Sarah and me and that my heart belongs to my girlfriend. And my girlfriend understood—I was on a reality show, which is sort of an out-of-life experience and very out of the ordinary. We worked through it, and obviously it wasn’t her favorite thing to watch [laughs] but she knows that I love her and that I’m not interested in anyone else romantically.

I am a bit of a conspiracy theorist on this one, so talk me down if I’m wrong. I felt that no matter how well you did on the show, they were going to have to cut you at some point because Cover Girl isn’t ready for an out lesbian spokesmodel.
I have the same conspiracy theory as you, and I certainly am not in a position to say, “Oh yeah, I know, Cover Girl’s not ready for me, so forget them!” I think the person who wins deserves it more than I do; I think a lot of people took better pictures than I did. At the same time, had I been completely successful with every picture that I took and perfect in every challenge, I’m still not sure that Cover Girl, being the reflector of a relatively conservative U.S. society, was ready for someone who thinks that gender is a socially constructed term or someone who’s really out and open with her sexuality. I’m not sure that Cover Girl would have been so keen on that.

Do you think that maybe by not winning, you dodged a bullet? Because judging from those “My Life as a Cover Girl” spots, it doesn’t seem like last year’s winner, Naima, is keeping all that busy.
I think that, of course, winning the competition would have been a huge opportunity for me and opened a lot of doors, but at the same time, I think a lot of doors are open just from being on the show itself. I think that “My Life as a Cover Girl” maybe doesn’t necessarily fit the Kim Stolz image. [Laughs] I’m not sure I could be a Cover Girl for my life. I think maybe there will be a lot of other opportunities that might arise that wouldn’t have, had I won.

I thought it was very cool that you guys got to meet butch icon Jenny Shimizu, because she’s definitely a pioneer when it comes to challenging traditional concepts of gender and beauty. Was there more from that visit that we didn’t see as far as direct advice or anything else you took out of that meeting?
I definitely think I might have talked more extensively with her about her gender expression, especially on the runway, because obviously that was a huge challenge for me. But for the most part, she did exactly what the show portrayed—she came in and talked about her life as an out model, and about how being a tomboy really played to her advantage and her individualistic talents. I think that those really came out there, and that’s really exciting.

In your last episode, Bre—with whom you’d had a pretty amicable relationship, apart from that whole limo throw-down—went a little batty. Was that something that caught you by surprise, or had they just edited her to look nicer in previous episodes?
It caught me by surprise, for sure. After the limo thing, things were pretty sour. But before the limo, Bre was one of my best friends—she was one of my first friends on the show. We really enjoyed each other’s company, we made each other laugh—and then all of a sudden, out of nowhere, in the limo, she burst out with all these insults to my character. And that came as a surprise to me, because not only was I very clearly scapegoated—I mean, everyone talked about everyone, and when Bre said, “I love Jayla, because she never talks about anyone else,” clearly [Bre] had no idea what was going on.

Just look at Jayla in the earlier weeks, talking about Bre’s friend Nik in a really harsh and negative way. We all talked about people. And I was insulted because, with all of my talking behind girls’ backs, I never talked about my friends negatively. I never talked about Bre or Kyle or Sarah or Coryn, none of those girls. So to be told that my character is ugly, and that “God don’t like ugly,” and whatever. [Laughs] God don’t like gay, either, Bre, if that’s what you’re trying to tell me, so obviously I’m pretty screwed when I get to my final day of judgment.

And then Bre started stealing things from Nicole, and I just looked at her as a sort of lunatic, and I became relatively fearful of her actions, especially after she tackled me. That was scarier than it looked.

Yeah, that whole wrestling thing, I couldn’t tell if it was friendly or not or…
I just sort of laughed it off, because I was really uncomfortable and kind of scared of her. And I’m not one to be scared easily. I mean, the girl got kicked out of college for fistfighting and she wasn’t the kind of person I wanted to mess with, especially since we both live in New York. So she tackled me and threw me on the ground and said, [hissing] “Just go back to your room!” And she called me “Inspector Gadget,” I believe, at one point? So I’m thinking, Jesus, who is this? I thought I knew her. But apparently not. Sometimes people surprise you, and not for the better. And I guess that’s just what happened.

Now who ate the granola bar? Because that’s what we’re all dying to know.
This is definitely something I would like to know. I wish I’d eaten the granola bar, I really do, because that would be so hilarious! I didn’t, unfortunately, and I don’t think that any of the other girls did either. I know that sounds crazy, but I don’t think anyone wanted to mess with Bre at that point. She had scared us all enough that I don’t think anyone really wanted to eat her granola bars. Also, I hate granola. [Alonso laughs] Maybe one of Bre’s other personalities ate it.

Did you ever get the impression, being in this bubble where it was female-only most of the time, that the other girls in the house started seeking your approval as a sort of surrogate man, or at least someone who could provide a masculine gaze?
I didn’t feel it that much. I definitely felt at times that people were treating me like the boyfriend of the house. People were looking at me as the masculine one who they could sort of flirt with innocently, and I wouldn’t be freaked out by it. It was clear that I played some sort of boyish role in the house.

While the show was running, did you go to Web sites like Television Without Pity to see what people were saying about you?
Yeah, I went to Television Without Pity; I went to a few sites to check out the reactions. You know, they could be hurtful at times, but if you go on a show like that, you have to be able to take things with a grain of salt and to realize that the guy writing from Oklahoma about how he thinks you have a chubby face—when the show hasn’t even started yet and all he’s seen is the introductory picture—if you’re going to get broken down over that, then you shouldn’t even walk outside.

Most people I know who are fans of the show love Miss J. Alexander and can’t stand Mr. J. Manuel. How did you respond to them?
Before I went on the show, I liked Miss J. a bit and Mr. J. annoyed me at times. But when I got there, I had some really good times with Mr. J. and I grew to like him a lot as a person. When he’s off-camera and talking to you, he can be an excellent role model and a really funny guy, very down-to-earth. I really enjoyed my time with Mr. J. As far as Miss J., I like him, but he was the first and the harshest to criticize my gender-identity expression. And that really confused me. Because of all people, I think he should be the one to understand. I thought perhaps he felt like, “It’s so easy for me to be feminine, why can’t she be?” I guess I could see where he was coming from, but that was really offensive to me, that he would constantly harp on my gender. After a while, it was like, enough is enough. At one point, you’re telling me to be myself, then you’re telling me to be someone else. If I did that to you, Miss J., you’d have a hard time with that.

So what’s next for you?
Well, I was working at a law firm for a while, but I quit that because I really do want to try modeling and acting. My appearance on Veronica Mars was really exciting for me, and it showed me that acting could be an interesting and exciting field for me to compete in. I’ll go to some acting agencies and see what I can do there, and go to some modeling agencies—who knows, maybe both of them will work out. We’ll see. At some point in my life, I’ll probably get back to my academic side. I majored in international politics and I wrote my thesis on foreign policy; I want to get back to that at some point, but right now I want to try modeling and acting.

Are you ready to become a queer icon?
Yeah! I hope I made the queer community proud. I’ve gotten some letters saying that I’ve made some people proud, which makes me very happy. Anything that I can do for the queer community, I will.

To learn more about Cycle 5’s Kim Stolz, visit her bio page here.

Source: Advocate.com
Source: The CWJason Willheim

In November of 2005, The Vilage Voice conducted an interview with Cycle 5‘s Kim Stolz following her appearance and elimination from the show. Here is the text from the interview (written and posted by Corina Zappia):

Beauty and the Modeling Beast
Talking with Top Model contestant Kim Stolz

Kim Stolz, a recently eliminated finalist on America’s Next Top Model, is just as fantastically droll, genuine, and astute in real life as she is on the show. The 22-year-old contestant, one of the show’s first out lesbian finalists, talks with us about the contest, the judges’ reaction to her masculinity, and whether the fashion and beauty industry will ever truly accept women of all sizes and sexual orientations.

So why did you want to do the show? Honestly, I was watching it one day with my friends, and we were commenting on how hilarious it would be if one of us were on a show like that. I joined it with a relatively unserious approach, and I came out of it with a very serious approach, which is something I never thought would happen.

Why did you think it’d be funny? I don’t know, it’s funny to be on reality TV. It’s like, what are you doing? Why are you doing that to yourself?

Did the fervor of the girls when they were auditioning freak you out? Yeah, there were definitely girls that would look around the room and point and say “Yes. No. Yes. No. She’s pretty. She’s not.” It was the hot-or-not game to the max. I saw plenty of girls doing that, and I didn’t see any of them on the show. So I guess it didn’t work out for them.

A couple of episodes portrayed you as the girl who talked about everyone else. I think if anything, if you really pay attention to the editing, to the storyline, it’s Bre that comes out as sort of the fool in the matter. Because in one episode, she’s saying, “Kim, you talk so much about everyone else. You know what I love about Jayla, she never talks about anyone.” But we all saw a few episodes before that Jayla saying the most brutal, harsh, negative things about Nik.

One complaint about the show is that most of the girls don’t go onto these pie-in-the-sky modeling contracts, and also some of the things they have people do are unrealistic. Kate Moss obviously didn’t have to pose as a statue to get signed. While it is a modeling competition, when it comes down to it, it’s a reality TV show. You’re trying to impress the judges, but the judges are trying to impress UPN, who’s trying to impress the public. You’re working for the public. Would the public like to see us do a runway show every single week? Probably not, they’d probably get pretty bored. Would the public like to see pigeons relieving themselves all over my head? Of course the public will.

Do you think they’d actually ever choose an out model or a plus-size model, or just allow her to get to the top five merely for the appearance of open-mindedness? There are definitely questions in my mind whether Cover Girl would want an extremely out person to be their spokesperson. It takes a lot for a sponsor to say, “Yes, this is going to be our person for the year. This very out and proud lesbian.” Because no one’s really done that yet.

Do you think we’re still looking at one kind of femininity? I actually don’t think so . . . I think that androgyny’s been in forever, that it’s a quality that a lot of modeling agencies look for because it’s different, it’s exciting, and it’s attractive to both sexes and all sexualities. But when I was in the competition, I was pretty surprised to find the judges so adverse to my masculinity.

So it annoyed you when they kept asking you to be “more feminine” every five seconds? It definitely annoyed me, it bugged the hell out of me. On the one hand, you’re saying I have to be myself, you’re saying it doesn’t work when I try to be feminine and it comes out looking awkward. At the same time, you’re yelling at me when I’m trying not to be feminine. At some point, I said, F-it, I’ll be myself, and to hell with what they think, because they’re being too confusing.

Does [Top Model sponsor] Cover Girl have any say in who’s chosen? I mean, I don’t know that. I have my own theories. My own conspiracy theories. Supposedly Cover Girl trusts Tyraand the other judges to choose their top girl. However, Cover Girl being the huge corporation that it is, I have my own questions about that. When they choose the winner, it’s not only someone who’s a great model, but also someone they can mold into whatever character they want. If you’re going to be part of the modeling industry, you should be able to help shape it. It’s not fair to everyone in the world to constantly represent the same kind of person.

A lot of the most famous models became that way because they were allowed to have their own look.They praised Twiggy so much on the show because she started a whole new movement. So why can’t they let someone else start a movement?

You mentioned in interview clips on Top Model‘s website that your sexuality was a source of strength, but also that if you “were to get to that point, where I worked for a designer or worked for a campaign, that needed me to be a little bit less open about who I am, I understand that. I don’t need to bring my personal life to the table.” I think that when I joined Top Model, it’s a modeling competition, but it’s also a show about these girls’ lives. So of course my sexuality was brought to the table. I would have no ability to hide it when you’re filming me every second of the day. It’s part of what shapes who I am. At the same time, if I’m hired for a big campaign or by a designer, and they ask me to keep my sexuality quiet and not bring it to the table, of course, I would go by their wishes. Because modeling is a business, above all else. You don’t bring your personal life to the table when you’re at a business meeting. If I was going to represent a corporation in a lawsuit, it wouldn’t be part of my opening argument. It’s irrelevant.

How do feel about the idea of being a role model for other gay women, perhaps those with an interest in fashion or television? I hope I represented the people well who were counting on me to give a good name to lesbians in the fashion and modeling industry.

It seems like the show was always hoping for some girl-on-girl action. Every contestant who left the show that you were friends with, they’d immediately pan to your face.Yeah, I know, I know. My close relationships with the girls were focused on much more than anyone else’s, and at times that was a little bit frustrating, but it was also just funny to watch. I’m not someone who’s going to take it and cry about it in my room. I was like, all right, whatever, I’ll have more camera time. Fine, go straight to my face when Kyle’s eliminated and have me cry hysterically cause I’m in love with her! Whatever.

You have an unabashed love of McDonald’s, which you claim you ate a couple times a week in college. Would you get comments about what you ate during the show from others? Those girls are tiny. It’s unbelievable. Certainly, besides the plus-size model, I weighed more than those other girls did. I was getting comments, let me tell you. I sort of morally disagreed with it, because I’m a person who has a lot of confidence, especially in terms of my weight, because I think I’m just fine. I’d reach for a croissant, and they’d be like, “Oh, you sure you want to eat that?”

So just to shut everyone up from talking about me, I tried to diet a little bit. But that didn’t really last very long, because I love to eat. And why am I going to ruin my happiness, one of the onlysources of relief I got on that show?

Who would you like to see win on the show, and why? Nicole. Not just because she was my favorite of the girls left. She was the only girl who, week after week, I’d actually be taken aback by how beautiful I thought her photo was, the only one I really felt like I could see when I was flipping the pages of Vogue or W. I think she deserves to win. Much more so than I did.

To learn more about Cycle 5’s Kim Stolz, visit her bio page here.

Source: The Village Voice
Source: The CW / Jason Willheim

To learn more about Cycle 5’s Kim Stolz, visit her bio page here. Photo credit: LIFE.

AfterEllen.com conducted an interview with Cycle 5‘s Kim Stolz following her appearance and elimination from the show. Here is the text from the interview (written and posted by Malinda Lo, Senior Writer):

We all knew that UPN’s America’s Next Top Model was one of the gayest shows on TV, but this season upped the queer ante even more when 22-year-old out lesbian Kim Stolz sauntered into Tyra Banks’s catfighting, back-stabbing and totally addictive reality series. Over the course of ten episodes, Stolz braved a series of photo shoots that tested her abilities to femme it up, gave the straight girls a taste of dyke drama, and landed a cameo spot on the UPN drama Veronica Mars. But after failing to win the judges over with her impression of a modern-day Venus, Stolz was sent back to her native New York, coming in fourth place in the competition.

We caught up with her during her post-show media blitz, when she gave us the dish on what really happened in that limo, who she liked and who she didn’t, and why everyone seemed to be sleeping in adjoining beds.

AfterEllen: Let’s go back a bit. So you went to college at Wesleyan, you majored in international relations, is that right?
Kim Stolz:
Yeah, government and international politics.

AE: So those aren’t exactly experiences we would normally associate with the desire to be a model. What initially drew you to modeling?
KS:
Well, my mom [Carol Brandt] was a model, a very successful model, in the 1960s and 70s. And I think I had watched videos of her when I was younger, on a runway, and I was always sort of drawn to it, but it seemed that everything in my life had prepared me for an academic realm, so I was planning on going toward that. But I was finishing up my senior year, and my friends and I were talking about what we were going to do, and I thought that it would be a really exciting risk to take. It was something that I had thought about, but not something that my interest was really strong in yet. But it turned out on the show that my interest became much stronger than I ever expected it to, and now it is something I want to pursue.

AE: It seems like everyone who auditioned for the show really, really wanted to be a model. How did you convince them to cast you when you didn’t have such a strong interest?
KS:
I think that it’s not necessarily the person who most wants to be a model who is the person who should. I think sometimes people want things so badly that they sort of jinx themselves, psych themselves out. I think that I wanted to be cast not because of desire, but because of my potential as a model, and I think that’s exactly why I was cast.

AE: So it seems like when you auditioned you also came out right away. Is that true?
KS:
I came out in terms of sexuality?

AE: Yeah.
KS:
Yeah. They ask you at auditions about your life, and I am not someone who, when asked about my life, is going to hide a huge part of it. So of course I came out—I think in my first audition.

AE: So for you, there just wasn’t really any choice to make?
KS:
I think they maybe asked me about a girlfriend or a boyfriend, and that kind of sparked it right there.

AE: Yeah, I’ve seen that in their audition application.
KS:
Right. Before I even got to the audition when I filled out the application, the answer was already there right in front of them.

AE: Were you out to your family before you auditioned?
KS:
Yes, I came out to my family—or my immediate family, my parents, when I was 16.

AE: That’s young.
KS:
Well, it wasn’t really accepted right away, but now about eight years later, it’s going much—or what is it, six? No, how many years is it? Oh, it’s six years later, and it’s going much better.

AE: [Laughs.] So you’re 22 now?
KS:
I’m 22. It seems like it’s been eight years, believe me.

AE: Has your extended family seen the show? They all know?
KS:
Everybody knows.

AE: How has that been?
KS:
It’s been good for the most part. I think there was a bit of surprise on certain people’s ends, but everyone is very supportive of me, and it’s my belief that if you come out to someone and you’re proud of it and you’re excited about it, they really have no choice but to be accepting. There’s obviously the exception, but this is my belief and my experience. Whereas if you come out and you’re very afraid and hesitant and insecure about it, people are much more likely to be critical. So me being so proud of it, I think, helped their acceptance of it.

AE: All right, so let’s just talk a little bit about Sarah.
KS:
Oh God. Obviously. [Laughs.]

AE: Of course! So tell me, from your perspective, what really happened between the two of you.
KS:
Well, Sarah and I had grown close as friends in the first few weeks of being in the house. What happened in the limo was absolutely like sort of a mess. [Laughs.] We were not I mean, I had no idea that kiss was coming, first of all, and second of all, it was fun. We were all there and having a good time, and there were actually other kisses that went on in that limo, that went on between other girls who shall remain nameless.

AE: Really? You’re not going to tell me who they were?
KS:
No, I’m not. [Laughs.] That’s for them to say. But they focused on my kiss with Sarah because I’m the lesbian, so all my kisses matter, but the limo was really pretty meaningless, obviously very meaningless. As far as anything else that happened, I think you’re in that house and you’re lonely and you’re stressed out, and if you can forge a connection with someone, a closeness, you hold onto that. And Sarah and I were very close friends, and perhaps there was a moment when the friendship lines were blurred, but she and I were on the same page. We both knew that I had a girlfriend that I was very into, and she had someone back home as well. And there wasn’t really much of a romantic feeling going on between us. It was much more of a moment of a question, and then it didn’t happen, obviously. I mean, despite being in an open relationship, I was always emotionally committed to my girlfriend, and physically as well.

AE: And physically as well?
KS:
Yeah, physically as well. I mean, if there was a makeout that occurred, so be it, but I don’t really consider that to call into question my relationship in any way.

AE: So you’re referring to the little night vision thing that was shown on TV.
KS:
Yeah, the night vision shot looked very different than it seemed in my eyes. I guess that’s up to interpretation.

AE: I can understand your perspective on this. Being a lesbian myself, it seems like, well, okay you hook up, whatever. But since Sarah clearly had never really done that before, do you feel like it was a different experience for her?
KS:
I know that’s the way it was portrayed on the episode, that for her it was a much bigger deal, but I’m not sure if that’s true. Sarah and I had a lot of conversations about it, and it seems that for her she was confused about a lot of things in her life, and she was growing as a person. She’s very young; she’s 18 years old, you know? And I think that she has a lot of figuring out to do, and her strife wasn’t don’t think about me and her sexuality, it was about a lot of things. The competition was very stressful in general. And I have dated almost all girls who have not in fact been with girls before, which is a coincidence I’m not just going for them! [Laughs.] But I think that I was definitely conscious of her feelings, and we are definitely on good terms. It’s not like I pieced her out as they made it look on the show. It’s not like that.

AE: So you feel like you were misrepresented?
KS:
Misrepresented is a strong word. I think it was definitely exaggerated. I think what went on between us was exaggerated, and I think her stress regarding it was exaggerated.

AE: In a recent interview with fansofrealitytv.com, you said that you thought that Sarah was trying. What did you mean by that?
KS:
I meant that Sarah is a really talented girl and she tries hard at everything she does, and because [of] how young she is and where she’s from, she has to try a lot harder than a lot of people to achieve the goals that she wants to. I think that Sarah should always be respected for her efforts and for everything she does. And I think she’s someone who always tries her best, and I guess that’s what I meant, and maybe it came out wrongly in that interview.

AE: OK. So how did what happened with Sarah on TV affect your relationship with your girlfriend?
KS:
Well, obviously it wasn’t my girlfriend’s favorite show to watch for a little while, but my girlfriend understood that my commitment was always to her, and she also understand that it was reality television; perhaps things were a little bit exaggerated. We have a lot of trust in our relationship and I think that’s what really allowed us to just look at it as something that happened in the past when we were in an open relationship which she made the decision to have, not me. I think it’s been clear since the first time we started dating that I wanted to be with just her. I think she knows that.

AE: How long have you guys been together?
KS:
For eight months now. We’d only been together for like six weeks when the show started filming, but that was a long time ago, so when I got back from filming, we resumed our relationship and we’ve been together ever since.

AE: Do you guys consider yourselves polyamorous?
KS:
No, absolutely not. As soon as I got back from filming, we made our relationship exclusive.

AE: So you’re no longer in an open relationship.
KS:
No.

E: OK, I have to say you also kind of seemed to have a crush on Kyle.
KS:
Oh, I do not.

AE: You didn’t?
KS:
No. [Laughs.]

AE: Are you sure?
KS:
People really want me to have had a crush on Kyle, but you can ask her, you can ask me, there absolutely was no sexual tension between Kyle and I. I mean, the girl is beautiful and she’s amazing, but Kyle is and always has been a very good friend of mine since I met her.

AE: OK.
KS:
I know everyone wants that, but no, I mean I would tell you, and she would be fine with it if I had had a crush on her. But no, I always looked at Kyle as a great friend and someone I wouldn’t want to lose.

AE: How did you feel living in a house full of straight girls?
KS:
Well, actually most of my friends at home are straight. My girlfriends [laughs] my friends who are girls, my female friends are mostly straight, so it really wasn’t that different from anything else. Their sexualities were not what made the house as stressful and crazy [as it was]; it was the nature of the competition, the nature of some of the girls, and being in such close quarters, being sequestered without seeing anyone else for a long period of time.

AE: How long were you there?
KS:
Anywhere from 8 to 11 weeks I guess.

AE: In regard to the competition, I felt like you were often being given mixed messages about your appearance. For example, Tyra would tell you to express your masculinity, and then the Jays would kind of chastise you for not being feminine enough. Did you feel like you were being given mixed messages?
KS:
Yeah, I definitely felt throughout I think a lot of people did in a lot of ways that we were being given mixed messages. At one point they’re telling me to be myself, and then the next moment they’re saying I should be more feminine. And then they’re telling me that I should be looking in male magazines. I didn’t understand exactly what they wanted of me, so I just tried to do everything. It worked for a while, and then it stopped working.

AE: So your strategy was to just kind of try out everything?
KS:
Yeah. I wanted to be versatile as well, and I was also sort of excited to get in touch with my feminine side a little bit more, so I wore some skirts and I dressed femininely some of the times. And then other times I definitely went back to my own personal sense of style and wore that. I think part of the problem was that given that I was so out about my sexuality, I think that a lot of people were very quick to merge my sexuality and gender, and that made them scrutinize my masculinity a whole lot more than they would otherwise.

AE: So how do you personally identify?
KS:
In terms of?

AE: Gender.
KS:
I don’t really like placing myself in a category in terms of gender. I think gender’s a spectrum just like sexuality, and I don’t think that there are two genders or three or four. I think there are thousands, millions.

AE: I guess I meant more in terms of lesbian cultural notions of gender. Like would you identify as butch or genderqueer?
KS:
The butch/femme definition – I mean in the same way, I just don’t believe in categorizing myself, but I don’t really love the term butch. I think that for me, I like to categorize myself as sort of boyish, but definitely with a very feminine face, so I’m sort of a diverse look, I guess. I just don’ really like to place myself in any categories, you know, it changes every day.

AE: I also thought it was interesting that the two Jays are both gay, but they really didn’t seem to understand these complexities of gender. They kept trying to put you in the girl checkbox.
KS:
Even just now, that’s the problem. I mean, people merge sexuality and gender, and they’re two different things. Jay Manuel for instance, I really would have no expectation as to whether he’d understand my gender expression or not, regardless of the fact that he’s gay, but Miss J, I was constantly surprised by Miss J’s misunderstanding and criticism of my gender expression. If anyone should understand a type of gender confusion, to me it seems like it should be him. And he was the most critical of my gender identity out of anyone that I was judged by. So, Miss J surprised me and disappointed me in that way.

AE: Did you ever talk to him about it?
KS:
I tried to, once, but he shrugged me off. He was eating lunch.

AE: Well, maybe he was just concentrating on eating.
KS:
Yeah…

AE: You sound skeptical.
KS:
Yeah.

AE: Well, in your last episode, I noticed that after you guys went into the judges panel you all came out and put on different clothes right away. Did you actually make the choice to wear all those miniskirts in the last few episodes? You seemed pretty eager to put your jeans back on.
KS:
The competition was getting down to the wire, and if I didn’t show them that I had some amount of versatility in terms of femininity and masculinity, then I would be leaving right away. I knew the judges were very receptive to me wearing short skirts, and it’s not that I was changing my style or changing my self, I was putting on an act for them, and they bought right into it.

AE: Let’s talk about the limo confrontation, the one with Bre and all of them.
KS:
The limo was sort of an unfortunate place for me in general, I guess.

AE: Yeah, it didn’t look like the best place in the world. You said in one of your confessional interviews that you felt like you were being scapegoated for talking behind people’s backs when everyone else was doing the same thing.
KS:
was scapegoated. I certainly was a culprit of talking about people behind their backs, but who wasn’t in that competition? Bre said something to the effect of loving Jayla because Jayla never talked about anyone, but we had just seen a few episodes back, Jayla talking about Nik in like the most brutal and unfortunate ways.

AE: Is there anything in retrospect that you would have done differently?
KS:
I think I wouldn’t have trusted Bre as much as I did. I really trusted her as a friend and I vented to her a lot and I guess it sort of it just struck me in the end as a bad idea, because she used everything I said to her to her advantage and to my disadvantage, and that was disappointing for me.

AE: What was going on with her in the last episode? It seemed like she was really going crazy.
KS:
There were several episodes before that conversation in the limo was very confusing to everyone because not only was I sort of being scapegoated, but she was very brutal, calling me an ugly person, and God don’t like ugly. And all I was thinking was, yeah well your God also don’t like gay, so there’s more than a few of us gonna be in trouble with that, but yeah, she went crazy. The competition got to her and she took a turn to crazy town.

AE: Do you think that your actions were portrayed accurately?
KS:
For the most part. There were obviously parts of me that were left out and there were parts of me that were exaggerated, but for the most part I think that I was portrayed with respect and accurately.

AE: Tell me what your favorite photo shoot was and why.
KS:
The favorite photo shoot of mine was probably either the Wild Boys photo shoot because it was a blast. Not all of our photo shoots were fun; a lot of them were very stressful all the time. Or perhaps my favorite photo shoot would have been the Ford Fusion one, just because I really felt that I succeeded in that, and I felt that I did a great job. So, the Ford Fusion commercial was really great for me.

AE: What was your least favorite photo shoot?
KS:
[Laughs.] The first one. The first photo shoot, I didn’t know what I was doing. I was in a gold lame suit with a pink cape, and with these braids coming out every which end of my head, and I was completely uncomfortable and the harness was terrible and my modeling was disastrous, and so [laughs] I think that photo shoot, from the photo as well as my experience, was definitely my least favorite.

AE: What was your favorite challenge?
KS:
I think that one of my favorite challenges was probably theVeronica Mars one, because at least that was something that I knew I was doing, and I could always articulate myself in front of people that I’m trying to impress.

AE: Always?
KS:
Not always. A lot of the time. I think that when I’ve interviewed for jobs I’ve done a good job. I don’t know, I think that I have a rather in comparison to other people, I have a good way of expressing myself. I also really liked the shopping challenge in the beginning; I thought that was a fun time. I usually like dressing myself and I enjoy expressing myself through style, so that was fun for me.

AE: What was your least favorite challenge?
KS:
My least favorite challenge, and I can’t even remember them all. I didn’t really like the Sue Wong runway challenge just because I was really bad at walking at that point, and it was very embarrassing for me, constantly.

AE: Going back to the situation in the house, you said that the people you were least comfortable with were the last few you were left with: Bre, Nik and Jayla. Why do you think you weren’t able to develop a rapport with them?
KS:
Well, you can’t be expected to get along with everyone, and the people I got along with greatest were the ones who had left except for Nicole, who I got along with very well. Jayla tended to give a lot of back-handed insults, which bothered me, and I felt that she’s a bit immature. Nik was very quiet, and I don’t think Nik really was interested in becoming friends with anyone, maybe to her benefit, because she was interested in the competition.

AE: Do you keep in touch with any of the girls from the show?
KS:
Yeah, I talk to Kyle almost every day. I talk to Ebony. Ebony’s like my favorite person in the world; she’s pretty amazing. And I talk to Nicole.

AE: So you don’t talk to Sarah anymore?
KS:
We don’t really talk very much. Sarah and I talked a bit after the show finished filming, but we are on very good terms, Sarah and I, but perhaps just because we both have busy schedules, we haven’t spoken very much.

AE: You said you’ve developed a real love for modeling through of the show, so what are your plans now?
KS:
Well, I want to pursue both modeling and acting. I’m very interested in applying to a couple of different acting agencies. I had a really good time at the Veronica Mars challenge, and I had a good time on that set. I definitely also want to go for modeling agencies, and I’ll just see which one works out for the better; perhaps both of them will.

AE: So what are you up to right now?
KS:
I just actually left a law firm that I was working at because I wanted to pursue acting and modeling. So I haven’t really had a chance to dive into it yet, but I look forward to it.

AE: OK, one more question for you: Is there anything you want to tell your lesbian fans that you haven’t had a chance to say yet?
KS:
Well I think that a lot of lesbians are quick to criticize their own, because when you’re there representing a group,obviously not everyone is going to love you. I’ve felt that I’ve had very positive feedback so far, but I guess I want to say that we’re all in the same fight to achieve the political ground that we need and the social ground that we need. I don’t really believe in burning bridges and I think that even if I didn’t do the best job representing lesbians as maybe others feel that I could have, I did the best job that I could. And I hope that people are accepting of me and the way that I acted, and that we can work together to use this, perhaps, as a stepping stone for positive influence and positivity in general.

AE: Do you feel that anyone in particular has criticized you?
KS:
No, I actually haven’t felt any criticism. But I’m sure that it’s out there, you know, when I look at your website, some people like me and some people don’t. I see that most people like me, which is nice. Obviously there are people that don’t of course there are so I guess I want to speak to those people, and hopefully we can all find a way to work toward the common goal.

AE: Oh, I have one more question for you; I’m sorry, I lied. I kept noticing that every time they filmed you guys in the house or in the hotel, it seemed like you always had your beds together. What was that about?
KS:
That happened all over the house, actually, not just in the beds I was sleeping in. I think I am someone that really has very close friendships with people. I form very close relationships so, I don’t know, I think that it was really lonely there. Sometimes it’s just nice to be in the same bed with someone. [Laughs.] It’s not like I was trying to push my bed everywhere with people. I guess with Lisa it happened too, that’s very strange.

AE: Yeah, in the last episode it also happened with Nik and Bre.
KS:
Their beds were pushed together we’re not just talking about me here, we’re talking about everybody?

AE: Yeah, everybody.
KS:
Yeah, everyone gets really lonely, and everyone craves personal closeness, and people just push their beds together. It’s just one way of materializing it, I guess. [Laughs.]

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In October of 2008, Cycle 5‘s Kim Stolz wrote a blog post on MTV’s Newsroom website. Here is the text from the blog post (written and posted by Kim Stolz):

Dear Tyra,

I want to express my deepest condolences over my ex-friend Jim Cantiello disrespecting you in his blog entry yesterday. I especially want to express sympathy for his apparent mocking of your music career. Keep with it, girl! Fierce!

Now, I’m not self-centered. Maybe you weren’t even referencing me in Analeigh’s photo shoot. Maybe you were talking about some other potentially bitchy red-carpet moment that you had with another interviewer … Could it be Joan or Melissa Rivers, or even Oprah?? OK, probably not Oprah. She’s perfect and everyone’s fave. (Does that hurt?) But does THIS

look like Melissa Rivers? Certainly doesn’t look like Joan … in fact … WAIT! It resembles me more than most photos taken of me — I gotta agree with Jim on that one.

But hey, that’s water under the bridge. Let’s get to the real issue at hand.

Jim is obviously not aware of the weight that the Fiercee Awards have on the entertainment industry. Not only is it one of the nation’s most anticipated awards shows, but it’s also one of the more star-studded carpets that 221 West 26th Street has ever seen. Wait. What? Did someone say Carol Alt?

The Fiercee Awards bring young girls with the same dream together — and applauds them for such noble endeavors as “Ugliest Cry,” “Worst Wipeout” and “Craziest Phone Call.” Now, if winning one of those awards doesn’t inspire confidence in our young models, what will?

Well Ty, I just want YOU to know that Jim’s misdemeanor has not gone unnoticed. I PERSONALLY gave him a talking-to. I learned from the best.

WATCH KIM’S TYRA SPOOF HERE.

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